First Baby

I’m about to have my first baby and I’m so nervous! I hate living so far away from my family during this time and I’m just so scared that I’m not going to know what to do when the baby comes and when I go into labor but I guess I’ll have to deal with it no matter what! My mom’s been as supportive as is humanly possible from 2000 miles away but it’s hard not to want her here.

I just moved into this new house with my husband about 3 months ago and the last few weeks have been all about going to www.electriccompaniesindallas.com/oncor-delivery.html to check electricity rates and painting the nursery but as of now I don’t even have a crib put together! I don’t know what I’m going to do if the baby comes early…he or she may have to sleep in a drawer. Speaking of which, I feel like the last person on the planet who didn’t want to find out the sex of their baby – every time I try to find clothes I have to buy yellow or green and I really just don’t want to have to deal with it. I was really tempted the last time I was at the doctor to get him to tell me what it was but I’ve made it this far (I’m 8 months) and I feel like it’s silly to give up now. Plus, I know my husband doesn’t want to know and there’s no way I could keep it a secret from him.

He’s been traveling a lot for work and though he’s been trying to get his boss to ease up on the travel schedule since the baby’s due there’s definitely a chance he’s going to be out of town when my water breaks. I feel like I’ll be the most scared person on the planet if that happens but you know, I’ll have to get over it really quickly.